Embarrassing Personal Revelation #892
Joni Mitchell once wrote, "All I really, really want our love to do is to bring out the best in me and in you, too."
It didn't.
My partner and I have separated. We tried. We really tried.
I am embarrassed to admit this. I even considered erasing this blog from the internet so that I would not embarrass myself or her. But my whole purpose in blogging was to have some kind of a community where I could be open and explore my writing in a personal way. You have shared the good things with me. You have seen my ugly 5K Ass Project photos. It would feel cowardly to just disappear.
Plus, I could use the support.
It didn't.
My partner and I have separated. We tried. We really tried.
I am embarrassed to admit this. I even considered erasing this blog from the internet so that I would not embarrass myself or her. But my whole purpose in blogging was to have some kind of a community where I could be open and explore my writing in a personal way. You have shared the good things with me. You have seen my ugly 5K Ass Project photos. It would feel cowardly to just disappear.
Plus, I could use the support.
Comments
When I wrote about it on my blog, I got more support than what I could have dreamed of.
I am so glad I had a place to sort things out at, to vent (sometimes) and pour some of all those feelings into....
I'm here and probably hundreds of others - ready to step up and be a shoulder to lean on, an ear to chew at or a hand to hold.
I'm sending you good thoughts today.
(There's nothing embarrassing about having a relationship fail. It has happen to everyone.)
(This sounds so trite and pappy, but I DO mean it.)
But why embarrassed? Were you warned against? A previous post may tell me the answer (link, please?)
We all adore you, we're here for you, and we feel the pain right along with you. There is nothing easy about relationships whether they end or not. Good for the two of you for trying and realizing what is best for you.
Be well and healthy, and take care of you.
Take care,you are in my thoughts.
Damn thats sounds scary in itself, you should see whats in there :)
I am sending you hugs and positive thoughts.
I don't know you well Professor J, but I would be SO PISSED (and sad) if you just disappeared. I want to find out what happens next, and support you on your way to it. That's as good a definition of friendship as any.
Thanks for being brave and sticking it out here with us. We won't let you regret it.
(Thank you for your kind words this morning. Community? I count on it too.)
Holding you in the Light --
Laura
At our age, embarrassment is a huge waste of time. You were heartfelt in expressing your love and there is nothing wrong with that...but love is tricky and that is a frickin' frackin' fact.
While I know it's tempting--don't go into hiding.
:(
Good on you for posting it. We needed to know so we can be there for you. Things are going to get better - breakups certainly suck.
We're here for you.
Some years back, I disappeared from the internet. I regretted it so much. I thought that it would be like purging my house where I would feel better afterwards, but I didn't. Just move forward, I say. It's all that I can offer besides my heartfelt best wishes for you.
Well, what I have learned thus far ... do blog about it, because you will be amazed at the support you will receive. And it's cathartic.
Beyond that? I'm eating a lot of pudding.
Don't be embarrassed b/c you said this was "The One." B/c if you're embarrassed, then I have to be embarrassed about that, too. I'd been fixing up my house ... to sell when we got married. Which I had told evvvvvveryone.
The truth is that the people who love us want us to be happy and will never say "Yeah, but you said ..." And everybody else? Fuck 'em.
Be kind to yourself. We will both get through these things. And I'm so glad you introduced yourself - I will be back.
I'm so sorry.
Please don't be embarrassed and please, please don't leave.
You deserve happiness. You will be in my thoughts.
K.
I'm glad you decided to stick around. The internets needs you.
I hope 2009 brings you better days.